It can be difficult to get better if you have this feeling. I would think that they do care about you if they are asking. I think it may be the bipolar talking to assume they are more concerned with how your disease affects them. I always had this feeling that my relationship with my boyfriend was always on "probation" . I would worry that my next "episode" would put him over the edge and he would leave me. This happened because he had threatened to leave prior when we were fighting. He's like any other person, he gets frustrated, our mood episodes take a lot out of us and the people around us too. I am fortunate that he is a Physician Assistant and has an understanding of mental health issues. With time, hopefully everyone will realize that your "ok" and doing better.