Hi there--one of the most valuable life lessons I have learned is that you cannot force someone to care if they don't, just as I cannot force myself to care about someone else if I don't feel it. It doesn't mean that you are any less worthy a person. It's just that you haven't found the right person yet. True love and friendship usually comes naturally. Having said that, still, I'm sorry you feel so let down by all those around you. I have felt that way too. It does hurt. but don't give up hope of finding a good friend. As for that something about yourself that you feel is "not right", maybe you can try to look deeper to try to find out what that is? Could it have something to do with your parents? and do you know why you feel unstable? So much to think about. Wishing you well--Terry