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Originally Posted by askperts
The neat thing about kids is their inherit belief that their parents are invincible. Just look in her/his eyes the next time and see how much they truly BELIEVE in your capacity. Since they believe in you, and since we believe in you, is there a chance you'd be willing to at least consider the possibility that you really do "rock" but hold yourself back with doubts and insecurities that we BPD's all suffer from?
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When I was a teenager I always said "you can hide who you are and pretend anything you want in front of others, but never in front of your child. When a person is left alone with their child, there's no hiding, they show their true colours." You can see how this is difficult with a Borderline since they don't know who they are.
My daughter has seen me cry way more that anyone else has. I've even had panic attacks when I was alone with her. I told my therapist "She shouldn't have to see me like this." It breaks my heart when I hear her tell her dad "Mommy is sad". So she IS the main reason I keep going to therapy and take my meds. She deserves it.
So, as you can see, I'm working on considering that I can be a good mom. I'm working really hard.