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My family and friend are so impatient with me lately. I am bipolar and I have a tendency to burst out, whether it is my soar, happiness, or irritability. My family has put up with a lot from me over the years. I understand and appreciate that. But there are times I can’t control myself. I rely heavily on my family and friends because I am on social security and can’t afford to live on my own. I have gotten a lot better but my family and friends seem to think I am cured and scorn me for little things I do (nothing compared to the way I acted before Rispiradone) . I can control myself to a certain extent. I have to tell myself over and over in my head think before you speak. How is that going to sound? Is what you need to say going to cause problems? Sometimes this works but not always. I don’t know where I would turn right now if my daughter got totally fed up with me (because I live in her house) and wanted me to find another place to live. I wouldn’t have anywhere to go and little, very little, money to get there. My home state is California and I am currently living in Kansas with my daughter, who is in the military. I am scared!
Maybe I should get myself to California and get on a homeless list and possibly find a housing assistance program. I know they have one I was on it before.
Any advise?
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