You're right. thats not a good enough appology, but you cant sit around waiting for the perfect appology. i dont know you and i dont know what your childhood was like and i know that nothing i can say or do can change that but i also had a tough childhood. maybe the both of us just need to accept who our parents are and move on. i accepted that my father is selfish and am trying to move on from what he did to me. im not saying that its gonna be easy to do, but if you dont think you can fix it you have to move on. if you want to try and fix it maybe you can try a therapist with your parents as a group. maybe having someone outside of the situation there might help.