I think our goals evolve as our life evolves. In my 20's my goal was to get a senior high paying corporate job that would allow lots of travel and give me an expense account. I acheived that by the time I was 30.

In the process I also developed a severe drinking problem and mental health issues. Those eventually caused me to loose the senior high paying job. I eventually had to take a more junior position in a completely area of accounting & much to my surprise I loved it. I unfortunately lost that job in a restructuring over a year ago, and am now just looking for a job. My main criteria are that it has health benefits and offers flex time so I can continue treatment for my addiction.

My life has evolved into different areas of interest. I'm now volunteering in a number of MH related areas. I'm blogging. I think I'd like to write a book some day. I want to get my ARC in harp performance by the time I'm 50. (I'm 42 now) which is something I never dreamed of in my 20's.

I'd still like to own my own place, but have kind of given up on that as unrealistic given where I live, and the state of my finances, since I've had to use most of my savings to support myself while I've been unemployed. But I still think I can get my career back on track and obtain a senior high paying position again. So home ownership isn't completely off the table.

But right now, I'm mostly focussed on staying sober, staying depression free and finding a job. It's definitely not where I thought I'd be in my 40's when I was 20, but that's ok.

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