It's been over a week since I've cut. People are happy for me and say good job. I know better. I know it will come back. The question is when. I'm not happy. I know it's a pause. That may be negative but I've gone a week before and crawled back to SI. I'm not going to fool myself and believe that this time will be different. I don't see a future without SI.I used to, but not anymore. It's going to haunt me forever. I hate that.