I'm sorry you're having so much trouble. I can't honestly say which I think you should do. I have mercifully not been hospitalized, but the idea terrifies me.

On the other hand, I can see how a few days of having others to take care of you and where your only responsibility is to do what you can to feel better, would be a really nice change from going to work and losing your lunch. All in all, i think if you want to keep your job the hospital sounds like a very good idea. The last time I felt that badly about work I just stuck it out as best I could until they let me go. I was having anxiety attacks all the time by then. It might be worthwhile even if you elect to change jobs.

No matter what you decide to do, I wish you all the best. I know how heart-thumping, clammy-skinned, caffeine shakey, brain squeezing, pulse-pounding, terror inducing - panic/anxiety attacks really suck. I'm all for anything that helps.