Hi. I know I won't be judged personally--psychologically, though, yes. My T (or my child's) would be non-judgemental. Since my last fax to my own T a month or so ago, I think he's trying a little harder to make sure that he has more of a "poker-face". I admitted in the fax that I watch for reactions in who I am talking to, and mentioned a reaction my child's T had once after I said about something. (I thought my kid's T's reaction was funny! I had really surprised him!) My own T has always been pretty good about not showing too much emotion and having somewhat of a poker-face, though, but like I said, I think he's trying a little more to make sure of that. I still have some thoughts from yesterday trying to convince me and urge me to do things, but I think I'm doing better because I did eat a couple Kudo's granola bars last night, and I munched out of a box of cereal during the middle of the night. I was up pretty late just hanging out online, thinking, doing whatever. I have kind of an anxious feeling today. I don't think I'll be as bad about everything today as yesterday. I think I'll be more "relaxed?!" about this "thin" thing. I may consider still calling my T next week when I know he'll be in the office. I'd like to see how things go. I've been thinking about leaving a voice mail for my kid's T since I do have a number that I can use for him, but I wouldn't really say anything--I'd just come up with an excuse to call, and word it so he could tell that something was up. He might ask me about it at our next appointment, or he might phrase his question more generically so that if I told anything I'd have to straight-out volunteer the information. He likes to do the latter, usually, I think to see if I'll talk to him. He likes to test me that way. I need to go out to the store later to pick up a couple necessities that I'm running out of. Maybe the venture out for a few minutes will do me some good.
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My life and being formerly homeless
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