((Gashley)) you wrote how I feel at times, and I don't understand why i keep falling back in my "hole" as I call it at times.... I don't understand why at times, these voided feelings, emptiness, loneliness, as if something is wrong with me, alone, etc. keep to come back to haunt me another time if I every get out of it....

but I understand what you mean, the words that I read, I feel them too.

i am not sure how to stay out of my "hole" as I call it, how do I stay out if I get out...

hope you can find an answer, lots of good positive thoughts your way