Squiggle, many threads get a lot of views but not many replies. I hope you're okay with what you're posting here.

I don't think people know what to say. I know I don't. It's over my head and I don't even know if CantExplain, you have a question or just want your behavior to be validated.

However, this is the psychotherapy forum so I think you would get more support posting in the forum about sexual issues. I forgot what it's called exactly. Or maybe your thread will be moved there anyway.