i talked with someone from the Rainn site about it they were really nice
the reason i did is cause my father is getting drunk more often lately and idk why but its usually because of me so i guess thats what it is
And the cancer might kill me eventually anyway but im scared for my brother i dont want him to get hurt like this or what if my father gets out of control and hits my brother just a little to much.
And if he tries to hit my older brother but cant cause he's not strong enough he takes it out on us.
My mother is away for the weekend with my sister and my older brother isnt home if he can help it anyway. Dad used a belt on us both this time :/
My brother has been lying on his bed for most part of the day thats not like him at all im starting to get worried.
And my father came into my room last night smelling of beer and well it still hurts it makes me feel so dirty and if i think of it i can feel and smell him as if it is happening again and he came to my room today too and i dont know how to ignore it anymore im just scared i wish theweekend was over already