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I am so sorry for this Ruben. This is terrible. I know it's hard because he is your father, she is your mother... They are wrong, parents can and are wrong. This should not be happening, not in the slightest way. I don't believe in abuse, not in the slightest form. But some people do agree that "spanking" or "whooping" are ok to a degree. I don't. None the less, when you use an instrument, when you make the child feel exposed and violated, that is without a doubt abuse. You are being abused. It's hard to accept it, but you are a victim right now and will continue to be until something is done to stop this terrible situation. I spent many years with those same stories... Many years with that same pain... A lot of your experiences are very similar to mine. It was hard to believe but he was wrong. He was sick, I was not the sick one. I was not the one messing up all the time, I was not the one who needed to be punished. I was the victim and he was the predator. Plain and simple, once you can believe that, you will start to feel much stronger and be able to get your life. Please tell a teacher, tell a family friend, tell an officer... Tell someone. This is the kind of pain that does not go away and the longer you are forced to endure it, the harder it will be for you to make a normal life for yourself when it's done. It is possible, I'm doing it myself now. But you have to say something. Even if it's just to one person, one person can change your world. Please find the courage to stand up and do something... You are in my thoughts and prayers (if you would like)
Take care of yourself please!
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I'd lock my hands behind my head, I'd cover my heart and hit the deck, I'd brace myself for the impact if I were you.
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