Hey, Secretum, my family & friends have always complained that i was too secretive. It was just me, but I guess they'll never get that.

You sound as if you're really in a place where you want to do therapy work & get some answers. That you haven't recovered the ability to be interested in work & play. It sounds like you've really got stuff you need to deal with, & you need the right therapist the help you thru it. You mention an ex-T, but now?

From what you say, there's no reason you can't sort thru whatever this stuff is that's log jamming you from the rest of your life. can't you get a new therapist? Or one that's a good fit? I just get the sense that you've got major roadblocks, but once you get rid of those you'll have a better view of your path.

This is a good place to be while you sort things out. And if I'm missing something, I'm sorry. Tell me again, okay?

Roadrunner, slowing down in her senior years