All I can think to do about telling my T-guy is to write him a letter and drop it off at the office or send it by fax. I know he would rather I give him letters in person, but if I wait to do that, it will never happen. At most * if * I would, it would happen at the tail end of the appointment as we are walking out--kind of like, "oh, by the way, here's a letter" and then goodbye. I don't know what else to do. I may still call, I just don't know. For now, I think I'll work on a letter to him and see what happens. He doesn't work until Tuesday, so I have a couple days yet. I'm doing okay, a little anxious feeling. One of those thoughts popped into my head a while ago, but I don't have that overwhelming urge to do anything at the moment. It's like the devil talking to me, giving me these thoughts, telling me to do these things and lead me on. The thoughts are still there and of course I worry about it. I worry about what my T will say about it. One thing I'll maybe add to the note is for him to please not mention and ask for specific details. I don't know if that's even possible, but going into everything like that is going to make me much more uncomfortable and anxious. If I tell him that I start thinking about losing weight or not eating after I have appointments, maybe that will be enough to convince him to go slow with this. It would be easier for me to talk about in the future when all is passed.