Thanks for the responses.

I have found a new therapist (old one was with my university counseling center, and we're only allowed 10 sessions/calendar year), but I haven't been able to meet with her as often as I'd like because she doesn't work whenever her kids don't have school, so that she can spend time with them. She's a very nice lady, but I don't feel like we are getting anywhere. She often interrupts me when I'm talking, and my thoughts are inherently so disorganized...we can't explore any issue because we can't stay on topic. I understand that tangents can be useful in therapy if they are in some way related to the original issue. These tangents are not really all that useful, especially when they distract from important issues.

I've only had 3 sessions with her, and I really like her as a person, so I don't want to end therapy with her. It also is really difficult to find a therapist here when you don't have a car.

I guess my biggest complaint is that I often do not see any way to clear the logs off of my path. I'm not in a forrest; I'm in a maze where all the walls are the same uninspired color, and everywhere I turn is a dead end. There is no way to solve the maze, no end point. I just keep banging against the same walls over and over again, as if I were hoping that someday I'll magically walk through them. There is only one way out of the maze, but neither you nor my parents would approve of it. So I'm trapped here until my time to solve the insolvable maze naturally runs out, which probably will be in about sixty years.

Thanks again for your time. You're not slowing down; my post was hard to read because it was the unedited babble of a distressed mind that probably has ADHD to begin with.