I was also a preemie, 3 months early. T and I have also talked how I likely wasn't held enough. Back then they were way too worried about germs, and didn't know the benefit of touch to preemie's. I talk about how I keep chasing that - that longing for infantile reconnection to T as mommy. It's been a long journey, and we're still working on it. I just wanted to let you know, I understand in my own context, that piece of it. (((safe hug)))