sometimes its good just to write what you think... it helps you to organise your thoughts and process your ideas. don't be so hard on yourself, it sometimes takes a while after a depressive episode to get back to any kind of resemblance of a "life". After my last major depression I was like a zombie for about a year, not depressed but just going through the motions of life. Now things are better, (even though I've hit a rough patch at the moment) and some things are good and enjoyable.
Do you journal or blog? Feel free to keep posting here, but journalling can really help to get thought patterns worked out.
With you T, can you try to think of certain defined problems that you want to address and then come to her and ask to focus on one or more of those each session?
Also, are you in a depression at the moment? Don't forget that the world always looks grey when you are depressed.
I will be praying for some colour and excitement to enter into your maze