Milly, I am amazed that you could even find the language to express what you have been through. You are surely healing with each new day and new positive experience. I think it is way-cool that you want to help others. I would like to also suggest has have others that you take time out to see who you are and play. You are not the sum total of your abuse or your history, you are much more. Take time to find that self. Good luck. You deserve it.