yeah spech, i think about the people I have lost over the past couple years, and the thoughts make me feel like they are still alive somehow, at least inside. I constantly think about my best friend in person who i lost a year ago. monday will be 1 year anniversary. its not a bad thing at all to keep talking to her, its a good thing i think. it helps. it certainly helps me with all the loss. it makes me feel like I am honoring the person I lost by never forgetting them. love you spech and love you too angel...