Thanks Rap,

I live in a really "redneck" mentality town....my husband is a good man....I thought...we have been married for 1 1/2 years and 2weeks after we were married things changed. I thought it was his drinking problem....then came the moods....I thought it was withdrawal because he quit drinking for 7 months....but the moods got worse...I know that I have not handled or reacted to all of this well....I am not a perfect person but I am human and the things that come out of his mouth are indescribable. He's started drinking again....more and more since he literally threw me out of the house and then was very angry at me for actually leaving. I have a brother who is bipolar and I understand to a point about mental disorders....but I am taking all of this very personal and it hurts. He is not the type of man that I could approach on talking to someone...we tried marriage counseling.....she thought he had a narcisism problem...he didn't like that...we quit going. Last night was a really bad fight...really bad....he told me that he was filing for divorce for 20th time this month....now today he's calm and pushing it all on to me...saying this is what I want....how exactly does that work for someone? I don't get. He projects all of this behavior on me and it is stuff that I am not doing, saying or anything....how do I deal with that?