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IceCreamKid · Nov 06, 2011, 08:53 AM

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Originally Posted by happycheeks

I received an email today and I applied to work at MacDonald's but I wasn't successful. I have applied to many jobs but I still haven't been called or anything. Alright.... This time I will just stop searching for a job. I should just study and wait until I am a little older. Fk this, I will just stop looking for a job now. I won't ever get a job. On the positive, I have been sent an email to be a expert English reviewer. I sent them an email and I hope I am successful. I like teaching and helping people with English. Maybe I should become a English teacher. But I guess I fail at life and I am a failer therefore I must do what is right and.....

Everyone has a right and everyone else has a job but me..... I don't. I lose, I fail. Everyone hates me. I don't deserve to be on this earth. No one appreciates. No one wants me. I feel like I should do something stupid but I can't.. Something inside of me stops me. If I did it, I would fear I might go to he**. I would cause my family, friends and my boyfriend a lot of pain. I should just talk to a manager and get on my knees and beg them for a job. I'm fed up of feeling like this. I cry over a stupid job. I wasn't meant to have a job. Maybe I should have s** for money. I am a piece of meat anyway. I'm sorry Heavenly Father for being a bad person and letting you down. I am a disgrace. I am a failer. I never succeed. I hate this life! Thanks a lot, managers. You make me feel like this. I hope you're happy. I hope everyone is happy when I am sad. I am FED UP with this job search!!!

FINE, I understand, I will never get a job. End of. My life is a mistake. I wasn't meant to be here. I want to just drink and drink until I feel numb.

Hi Happy. I've been a failure. More than once and inside I still often feel a failure. I didn't have a supportive family and life has been hard. It took me a long time to get enough tools together to help myself. It didn't have to take that long; I could have progressed faster if I had asked for and received the help I needed. But I didn't think I deserved help. If I were starting out now (or if I had to start again now) I would take some time to look around at all the help that is available: any help offered through the government, from local schools, colleges, universities and houses of worship, from social service agencies, from the Salvation Army and local community centers: help with getting a job and help with dealing with my emotions and self-esteem. Then I would ask for help everywhere I could. I didn't know I could do this when I was young. Many people took one look at me and rejected me, and I would hide and cry and feel even worse about myself. I have a better understanding now why some of this happened. And what I have learned is to keep trying. You are wonderfully expressive and when I read your sad posts I always hope that some of what you are expressing is just momentary sadness that will go away because you've gotten it out by posting it here. Courage, Happy. Courage!