God, I am so pathetic and such a mental mess!
So I was seeing this guy who i intuitively suspected was using me as a rebound although it was very "flip-floppy" on his part. I guess you could say he was emotionally unavailable, but charming all the time.
Anyway, I ended it with him about 2 months ago and have been in such a slump, missing him. I am bipolar and went back on meds, last night I texted him that I wanted to properly apologize and that I miss him all while under the influence of ambien.

Part of me really regrets this! But then again, this is just who I am. I mean, compared to his nasty slut exgirlfriend who posts nude pics of herself online and doesn't work or go to school - I think I'm relatively okay.

What would a guy think about this? Can I get a man's perspective???