You know happy, I told you this before. This is not about you. The world is a mess, there is a crisis... what you can do is work on your education and rack up some experience through volunteering and so on. And keep sending the resumes.

Look, many of us been there. I sat on tall walls and window panes before, for the same exact reasons, being another chick with education but no experience. The department of employment was not helpful either (and they were probably afraid I am after their job). But it is not solution.

and happy, you are not "fine". If you were fine you would not be posting thread after thread about how you don't value yourself or your life. I am not the person to encourage people to run for help when in mild distress, but you seem to be going through a real rough patch. Get a therapist and deal with the issues you have. They may also help you to make better impression in job seeking.

you have a choice.