I'm in the middle of a bad situation right now, but it's been going on for a while right now, and so a part of me feels like I should just accept chaos as the new normal.
Severe problems with eating, sleeping, nightmares, focusing at work, and speech because of what's happening.

T allows me to contact him "when things get bad" or "when it's needed", but the thing is that it always feels like that.

We normally meet 2x a week, and lately it's even been 3x. Monday is his day off and he gave me a time slot anyway.

I guess why I'm writing this is because I'm scared of over-doing it and making him sick of me. It's so hard to hang on, and when I contact him he says it's ok, but I still feel like a pest.