I have decided that I am no longer going to take my meds and when I graduate I am no longer going to see a pdoc. Last Wednesday, the last time I saw my doc, he uped my Seroquel to 100mg from 50mg. I know, not a huge increase but it sent me into a crazy spiral. My body freaked and I went temporaraly *insane*. I started having blackouts and started cutting myself two days after the increase. I was admitted to and released from the pysch ward at one of the hospitals in town. I was forced to go by the police because a doctor I saw about the black outs said I was having self destructive behaviour and said I needed to be watched. I did not want to go to the hospital but my only choices were to go voluntarily or go against my will, but I was told that I was going no matter what. I was held for twelve hours after my physical workup and the psych eval. I have decided that I would rather have intense mood swings and try to help myself rather than risk going through that again. I can no longer trust the medical industry. They plotted against me to try and get me committed.
I am going to need all of the help I can get from ya'll to do this. Please help me, but please, don't try and talk me out of going alone.
Thanks
Amy