Buttercup, you aren't alone. I can't tell you how many times I've written replies and thought, "nah, no one cares what I think." It's rough. I avoid mirrors as much as possible, cause I don't see what other people seem to - I don't believe people mean it when the compliment me, cause I'm just not worth complimenting.

It sounds like you're pretty depressed, which I understand. It is always worse for me this time of year, heading into the holiday season. I am not close with my family and have friends that can be counted on one hand. Makes my depression even worse.

I know you didn't ask for suggestions, but I know my T has suggested that when I get this deep into depression, I do things that I "used" to like (when not in the depths of depression) in an effort to keep me afloat. So I'll buy food I know I liked to eat, I'll listen to music I used to like, I'll go for walks if it's nice enough out, I'll go shopping for shoes (mirrors are only below the knee) and I'll catch up on my favorite TV shoes. It doesn't fix it, but it does help me between my appointments with my T.