I wrote this post after a very bad week. And I can see my own struggle here as I try to go over my past, people around me and how I look at things and react to things. But what I did here, is a part of PTSD, which is trying very hard to look at the past and even the present and how that has presented the PTSD that is so hard to understand.

It seems when I am triggered enough, I come back to the same drawing board so to speak to try to understand how it manifested in me. It sure is a consuming disorder. And JD is right, I am looking to file things from my past the right way, I have a lot to file.

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