i dont know if it helps, but it was very challenging raising children while battling mental illness so in one way you were blessed. i felt very worthless as a mother and did not feel as if i accomplished much with my life despite raising three troublefree kids.

on the otherhand you can still become accomplished after forty. i didnt get my degree until i was 45 and finally working a job i love helping others. finally feel as if i have succeeded in something.