I am sorry for all the triggering things that I have posted here, especially recently. I am sorry for a lot of things, things that I don't know. That doesn't make sense, but nothing does right now. I am so lost. Anyway, I am just sorry that I have come here and post, and...well make people worry. People I don't even know, worry. Wonder if I'm ok. Well, I'm not ok...but I am surviving...thus far. It seems as long as I keep busy, I can keep going. When I stop, that is when the bad comes. I know this. If I am at work, or school...then I am not thinking about my demons. It distracts me, but as soon as I am in my car on the way home...they come back. And they stay until I am able to go again. I know that you all only want to help me. But I am beyond help at this point. At least help that I can get online, don't even know if I can get help in "real life." This is why I think I will leave. I am planning on leaving at least. I really don' t know...anyway...

[b] I'm alright...I'm alright...it only hurts when I breathe... [b]