Hi annajane.. I am so glad you found Psych Central so that you can talk about your problems. The first step is talking about it. Getting it off your chest... I can say you are in an abusive relationship. Your husband has no right to hurt your physically. I don't know if you are living in the United States. If you are, there are women's shelters that can help you. They can house you, help you get on your feet and point you in a new direction for a much better life.

First .. It is NOT your fault.. He does not want to admit he is wrong when he hits you, which to me means he is not willing to change. SO the abuse will continue. More likely it will get worse. And as it gets worse, it somehow drains your soul and you become fearful, ashamed, maybe even feel worthless.. The longer you stay in an abusive relationship, the harder it is to get up and leave...Sometimes one feels trapped and afraid and they hide within themselves.. There is "NO GOOD" that can come out of an abusive relationship..

So the good thing is, there is hope for you to have a better life.. If you have family or friends that can help you leave this abusive relationship, I would suggest you do it. And don't wait 5 or 10 years down the road to do it..Do it now.. Before it strips you of who you are......

NO woman, child or any living creature deserves to be abused, threatened, or hit. It is HIS fault for hitting you.. It is your "choice" on what you are going to do a bout it. Stay and take it.. or.... Leave and start a new life....You deserve much better and you need to believe that... You need to believe in yourself...