Annajane, this post really makes me scared for you for a few reasons. First that you already feel that this is your fault. Second that your husband has stated that you have no voice in the relationship, third that he displays no remorse, fourth that you demonstrated that it is already getting worse.

I left an abusive marriage with three little ones. What you have said is so familiar. I was so scared to leave. I lost my self in the abuse. I almost lost my life to his hands twice before I got out. Things can escalate quicker than you think. I am pleading to you to please get yourself safe. I went to a women's shelter and they helped me get a fresh start. My only regret now is that it took me five years to get out. This is 100% NOT your fault! I urge you to get out while you still have some sense of self intact, and before you become seriously injured or worse. A women's shelter not only helps you get back on your feet but they also offer counciling and a safe environment where you would not have to fear your husband.

Please keep in contact with us, let us know your are safe. I wish you the strength you need to help yourself right now.