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PurpleFlyingMonkeys · 08:35 AM

I originally thought this was mgrans post when I posted this. I read up afterward and saw the rest.

Gashly, it's pretty interesting that many of the things you are experiencing are common for me as well. I thought it could be perhaps ADD but I was never diagnosed with ADD and never really felt like that was me. It seemed to be different than the ADD. Because of the extra thoughts. Because of the lack of connection between myself and others. I can make friends and follow the superficial uninteresting role of a 24 year old American girl and follow all of the rules that society says we should follow and fake a smile and fake interest in the most mundane things but it gets to be too much. To keep up with others around me is such a huge task, I have to force conversation with almost everyone. There are very very few people who could actually understand me if I chose to let them in. But I have found some who do understand, who do see what I see and can comprehend what I am saying although they do sometimes have a difficult time.

The way you described work is me to a t. I switch modes and I'm unstoppable. Everything is is blocked out. I'll have 10 minor anxiety attacks before work in the 2 hours I'm awake but once I'm at work, for 8 hours I wont have one. It's like I shut everything off but the job and go into robo mode. Oh but when someone throws me off it infuriates me. I get so upset, they throw off my whole system and it sets me back. I have to like switch over from robo mode to something else and it's not a welcomed switch.

Journaling has helped my thinking process and learning process. Other than that I don't really know too much... My heads all over the place.

mgran

Thank you for your post! I have such difficult times keeping my thoughts in order and continuing them. They get lost so quickly but my mind is in over drive non stop so my thoughts change like it's going out of style and quickly I forget what I just learned or what I just thought. So frustrating.

I've tried the listening to learn approach a few times. It doesn't seem to work for me too well. It could be because most of the time I can not focus to listen. But my learning way is through sight. I don't know how to make it any better. If I see things I get it, I understand. Math was a breeze, all I had to do was see it written out and I understood why and how. But to actually sit and listen to someone tell my why or how was pure torture sometimes. I get the Charlie Brown syndrome (making that up) with the teacher where all you hear is "waaah waaah waah". I get that a lot lol

Good advice, I wish I could learn that way, I've tried so many times but it doesn't work. Not to mention my sleep is so limited when I do sleep, I'm completely out, I don't think my mind would notice anything around me while I was asleep