I'll try to keep this short.
I have been suffering from anxiety that is out of control. It has been a long time. I feel so tense and I have been through a lot lately, problems with my husband, hopitalization, had ECT. So my brain is suffering. I took three percocets a few nights ago just to escape. I know that is really bad. I dont know if I should tell anyone,(like my T or pdoc) it's not something I do on a regular basis.

Also, yesterday I was very sad. More sad than usual. I was looking up support groups in my area. There is no way I'm going back to the hospital. No freakin way. All they did was mess up my meds and treat me like crap. Well I had the bright idea of writing a note to my husband and family to say goodbye. I did it in the kitchen while my husband was upstairs. I was crying so hard he actually came down and asked me whats wrong. He hasn't done that in awhile because I cry all the time he's used to it. I still have it and I wonder if it's wise to show it to my T today or just rip it up. I'm afraid she'll commit me.
What do you guys think I should do?