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Nov 07, 2011, 12:51 PM
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Member Since: Oct 2009
Location: Louisianna
Posts: 1,473
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lol always, that's how you know it's what you should do. Two years ago when I was seeing my t I told her some things that made her instantly want to hospitalize me. It took a lot of courage but I explained to her that I have a daughter, and at the time was with my abusive ex. I just couldn't leave my daughter with him alone. I was seeing things and hearing things and was convinced that the world did not exist out side of my head, that we were all living inside of my head and everyone around me were a part of me. Apparently that's a big sign of being psychotic lol.
What she did instead of hospitalizing me was gave me the option to sit with her. She told me if I felt like that again, if it got worse or didn't get better she told me to go to her office. She said I didn't need an appointment and she would let me just sit in the office. If I needed to talk to her or wanted she would see me in between patients, this way if I needed the extra help I would have it without being hospitalized.
I never took her up on her offer but very soon after I packed my daughter and myself up and moved across the country to get away from the ex. I literally thought that even she was a part of me, that she and I were the same person but could communicate. That's something that she would put anyone in the hospital for but she knew my concerns were legitimate and that I would go to her if it got worse before trying to take things into my own hands.
My point is, maybe show her this thread. Tell her that although you are feeling worse, you don't think the hospital will help you and ask her if there are alternatives that she could suggest to help. If you are not suicidal at that moment, let her know that. Tell her that you are not suicidal atm but the thoughts do come and you need to know how to handle it before it gets bad enough to where you are hospitalized. If you are suicidal when you go to speak to her, maybe it would be best to go to the hospital and maybe it wont be, but talking to your t will make things easier and make you feel better about the situation. Just make sure she knows your concerns for the hospital and that you are willing to try anything else she suggests apart from the hospital. It worked for me 
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