Honestly, bit struggling lately too. I hear you, I could say the same, just when I think I am all the wiser, I have yet another eruption of confusion and dismay. Well, part of it is perhaps life and how it just changes us as we live through it. And another part Venus is that as we do go through life, we are constantly learning and have to adjust our perceptions and in that we change a little, learn a little, and grow a little.

I just saw the movie with Julia Roberts, Eat, Pray, Love and as I was watching it I thought, gee maybe I should go to India and learn how to clear my mind too. I had to laugh because her chattyness and confusion and struggle to just be able to empty her mind is a good charector portrayal of myself. And I think I should see if I can watch that movie again and give it more thought because there were some really good messages in it. And it also reminded me of when I truely was exhausted dealing with a lot of loss and I did fall apart and I would have liked to have been in that kind of atmosphere where I could learn some skills that would have been much more helpful than where I did get, well, not the right help I needed.

I sure can say I was never perfect, I tried very hard to do my best to adjust. And your quote had really struck me when I first read it, because I did try to adjust to a profoundly sick society and it didn't make me healthy. Oh yeah, I had figured out the issues of others and always felt I had to do my best to accept these issues and work around them. I truely thought I faired well, but I didn't fair well, it did effect me without my knowing it.

The one thing I can say is that you have to figure out what your own gifts are Venus, and some of it is most definitely going to be genetic, none of us can escape that. And also becoming aware of our own personal weaknesses and making efforts to do our best to learn ways to overcome these weaknesses can be very helpful. I would want that if I was to go back in time to being your age. I will tell you that as much you know now, your going to learn more, see things differently and your going to change a bit, that is what life does to everyone. Your not set in stone, no one is really set in stone all any of us can do is listen to who we are and really try to be ourselves and not fall into unreasonable expectations of what any society thinks we should be. Because the reality that I have seen is the expectations of society changes, it has to in order to market something new.

Keep trying, make sure your not hard on yourself, we all have a tendency to do that.

Open Eyes