Kehly, I can tell you are a very compassionate person because people like you tend to put yourself last and before you know it you are at the point of exhaustion. I think getting a job for yourself was a positive step in the right direction. I was a stay at home mom as well when I became seperated and eventually divorced my ex. I had lost everything. One of the first steps in empowerment is to have your very own income. Also the fact you had stepped out of an unhealthy relationship is also another step in the right direction. It is obvious you still love him but don't let that overshadow your goals into taking care of YOU.
HUGS
Cher