I feel that way too at times. we also recently got to have an evening (just the two of us) and it was so much fun. But that happens so rarely (the time before that we had time to ourselves was when my son was conceived, and he will be a year old in a week) he had a great talk, and a really good time, things were really good for about a week, but slowly going back to the way they were before. i blame myself too, even though I know not many women would put up with what i do...lol