i saw my t today and told hem i was planing on ending it all. so in order for hem not to lock me up he drove me home and made me give up all my tools. what good is that i can allways get more? i know he is trying to help but he told the people were i live what i was planing to do now thay are acting funny twords me. why is anyones elshs decision to make. i jest dont know to do. i dont want to live but i dont want to die eather. may be i shuld of jest checked my self in but it has allways made things worsh in the past. i want to cut so badly right now, no one seems to understand that si haves helped keep me alive for the past 13 years. i told hem that takeing my tools would jest make things worsh but he jest did not understand. i jest dont know what to do any more. sory if this post affends anyone.