Well, I've started a note to him. It's about one full page typed right now. I've also been reading some on ED's and I'm getting more scared to tell him. I think he's leading more to different things now anyways since I told him that I haven't really been taking my regular meds and trying to go without, plus that I tend to develop a tolerance to things I'm taking after a while. I'm not on any psych meds (yet). I've also mentioned that when I have pain (I have chronic medical problems) that I will do whatever it takes to help ease the pain on really bad days, including if it means taking one or two extra OTC meds at a time in addition to my regular prescription for pain. I know enough to not totally over do it and if a particular med just can not be taken with another, so I might take things to the extreme, but I don't get stupid about it. Well, so much for the getting stupid after this weekend. Well, mildly stupid. More irresponsible and obsessive/compulsive? There is alot of fear in telling. I know that I'll go over this letter to my T a thousand times, editing and revising continuously. I may end up with enough to let him know that something happened regarding my eating and such and to please not ask about it. It's hard figuring out what to do with this.