Rainbowzz I understand your fear completely. Is this a new doctor or someone you've seen before?? One thing that has helped me is when the nurse does all her paperwork before the doc comes in I tell her up front that I'm an abuse survivor and that I have anxiety problems. That is all I normally have to say. They pretty much get the picture then and you don't have to go into detail. If you tell them this up front they tend to go a little slower and try to make sure you're OK. Is the doc female?? Make sure you have a nurse in the room with you. The nurse has comforted me during exams. And ask the doc to please tell you what they are about to do before they do it. It helps to know that you are about to be touched before they actually do it.

Just remember you are doing this for your health and this is a way of taking care of yourself. Even though it's the worest thing there is.

Can H go with you??? Just have to prepare yourself.

Many good thoughts for you,
Monty

( and on that note I need to get my courage up and make my appointment )