Ok so I went and told my T everything. She was so cool about it. She actually told me understood why I took the percocets. She knows I knew it wouldnt kill me. She knows I have been through a lot and I needed a break somehow. I told her I know it was irresponsible and not the right answer.

Now the note she made me read to her. She said it was surprisingly positive, asked me what I learned from writing it, asked me how I felt when I was writing it, etc. She didn't 302 me or anything like that. She told me she knows I would say if I was really suicidal. I am actually doing better than I was a couple months ago. I just wrote the note to vent. I'm so glad I said something about these things. You guys were right. Thank you very much for your responses.