I am looking for a little support, encouragement and reminder that recovery is worth it. I have been battling an eating disorder for years… most of my life… and recently have been doing better than ever and more consistent for the longest period ever but my urges to turn back to my eating disorder are getting stronger. The urges are always there and strong … but I have been doing a good job managing them recently. Then the last few weeks people have started making comments about my weight (people who do not know about my eating disorder history)… last week the comments got frequent and very in-depth which has my eating disorder going crazy in my head…
I have started giving in to small urges and I know I don’t want to spiral back … I know that I have been happy that I have been doing better but the urges are really starting to get to me and they are getting stronger and stronger… I don’t understand the comments people have been making because I haven't seen my weight in a few years and can not judge it at all .... but the comments are totally triggering me… I don't know if they are true or not ... only my dietitian knows if they are true and we haven't been able to talk about it yet...

I am annoyed that simple comments that wouldn't make a person without an eating disorder think twice have my head going in every possible direction...