Hi Kimberly, i too know what its like to think that everyone hates you and that they are embarrassed by you. But its not true, please believe me on this one, the depression is telling you all these things. The amount of times i've wanted to go into a darkened corner and hide, or walk for a thousands years to get away from all the pain and disappointment.
I'm afraid i don't have any magic solutions although i wish to God i had, but i do understand and i'm giving you a massive hug!
Hang in there, Abby