found out yestiday that i have deeply manofested trust issues. coming from constant bullying in school and at home in the destant past. and opening my self completely to two people who died within the last three years. my mum died in 2009. the only person i was able to talk to until i met my loving girlfriend. i told my gf everything no matter how trivial and never lied to her. she died in april this year. i cant talk to my absent friends, in order to protect them from an akward conversation they dont want to have. and my family anr't the kind of family to talk to each other. my counceler is the only one a can talk to but an hour an week goes way too quickly. i spos that a buntch of strangers on a forum are a good place to start.
much love Dox