i know after a break it usually takes a bit for me to feel comfortable in T again even if it is only one session.anyway i went in yesterday wanting things to be different i showed up just in time .not to early so i didn't have time to sit and get all panicky.i decided i was bringing my T bag and hold my kitty during session
it was so strange at first but T accepted it fine.she asked if it had a name i said no so she just called it kitty and asked to see its face and said it was cute. she asked about how we(me and the kitty) did with the power outage and if we had showed up for T last week.i said we were miserable and that i didn't show up and talked no more.than she just got up went to her shelf and said what are we going to play around with now
i was happy but then she took out the dreaded magnetic words
but then she grabbed her mat and sat on the floor with me
i asked her what she wanted me to do with these
and she said what ever i wanted.i didn't do much with them but T did they didn't have the words i liked . i did talk a little about stuff at work and let her know some stuff.she kind of had a strange reaction.she said they didn't really say that did they thats not the truth.it hurt and i just looked at her and said you think i would lie and am making this up that is really sad.she explained that he just thought it was so crazy that someone would say these things about me.but she treated it like it was no big deal and that i shouldn't take it on we talked some about this and played with the words.she kept it really light and i was able to talk.she did ask how my friend was and if i was talking to anyone but her.and i said no isn't that something.in response to her noticing i was talking to her
she started to laugh again and said she was being sarcastic and that i wasn't talking to her either in a fake frustrated voice and we both kind of laughed .in the end i wish that she had taken things a little more seriously but i think if she had maybe i wouldn't have talked as well as i did IDK.i am just trying to trust her more and it was nice to be back in that room.maybe ill write more later but it was a really light session and that was OK for me i guess
