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Old Nov 08, 2011, 12:00 PM
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Maybe I'm over-dramatizing when I say my boyfriend is never there for me, but it's a rarity for him to be completely open-minded and accepting of me. When I started having episodes, of which I can only compare to those of bi-polar disorder (I am not diagnosed), he began pulling back. I've always been a manic depressive personality, but he's never really dealt with it. He avoids me a lot lately, and I have no idea what I should do.
Sometimes I feel like I need to break things off, but I'm in such a bad way, that I feel as though leaving will make me feel even more empty and alone. He's never been this close to someone with mental illness, so I try to be understand of the predicament he's in, but does it really take four years to warm up to someone you can't relate to in that way?
I've adapted to his alcoholic tendencies. I nurture him when he is sad, and I try my best to control my emotions around him. I'm just not sure what I should do. I'm depressed, and he can't and won't try to help me.
Maybe I should just do as he said - "Then get some ****ing help and quit crying about it."

Is it really that simple?