I'm so sorry that you are having problems in relationships. I want you to know that there is hope for you! I too have problems in relationships rooted from the past. I feel like graduaally I am healing. You can too. First, I would say to start forming a small grop of people who can support you. I hope you will think about looking for another therapist. Maybe start with a license therapist or psychologist and then you can talk about your desire to get on meds (which often means going to a psychiatrist ).
Regardless, I want you to know that you that you can get better and have healthy relationships