I do this too, and I hate it too. I see my T once a week, so I have lots of time to think about what I want (or need) to say. In the past it wasn't unusual for me to take weeks - or months - to get something out. But I so hate that feeling of wasting a valuable session that I learned a way around it. I don't journal, but I have a little notepad and I jot down things I want to bring up. For the really difficult ones, I write out what I want to say, on a separate sheet of paper. Then ... if I can't just talk about it, I read what I've written out, or if I can't even read it, I just hand it to him and let him read it. One way or the other, I AM going to get this stuff out there for discussion!!!!!