Thanks everyone. I have an awesome T that I will see Friday. While I didnt actually talk to her over the phone, we left messages for each other, she knowa something is up I could tell by her initial return phone call...though I didnt actually divulge any details on the phone. Finally got up and did my usual stuff. It is just strange to catch it before sui and hospital i think i began spiralling about my indecision of what to and imdid something i felt a tiny tiny bit better....its still really shaky.